After reading Amandas blog ‘High Expectations! Killing me slowly’ I reflected on my own expectations and yes I think I am also putting a lot of pressure on myself to achieve. I don’t think that wanting to do your absolute best is a bad thing and wanting a great result from an assignment is unreasonable but what is unreasonable is how sick it makes me feel wanting a good result. When our results come in I feel physically sick clicking on the link and waiting to see the outcome, unfortunately I think it comes with the territory.
I’ve come to realise that I can’t take the feedback from the marker personally (but I do and I have to talk myself of the imaginary ledge I have climbed onto) and sadley I have had some harsh comments here and there. They don’t know me, they don’t know how hard I work on absolutley every word I type and how much time I take away from my family to sweat over every detail in the hopes that I get it right and they think so too, it is their job. I may not agree with some of the feedback I receive but it is what it is and I will never stop trying to be the best I can be. I know how passionate I am to be a teacher and this is what drives me. Keep your chins held high, there is a light at the end of the tunnel and it is not a train.